orchid day

ah...huhuhu..i'm freaking out..suddenly i'm panicking by myself..

i need to be alone..tenangkan fikiran..huhuhu

there's no other place like home! ^-^

aihs..exam is around 2 months.. -_-``

huhu..miss my dong bang shin ki..hehe

hwaiting!! ^-^

february's note~

well..it's been a while..i've been busssyyy for the past few weeks..finished anesth rotation..currently doing the final posting of the sem..MEDICINE! i want to do well..yeo ilshimmihae!!

what's new?not much..i've been watching God of Study lately..and the drama is great! it already ends in korea but the subtitles arent out yet..uh, cant wait! ^-^

life has been a little bit off the rail..i mean, i was a bit distracted by something..uh, my unlucky chapter of my life. whatever. i was good until last thursday i got this bad dream..arghh..it was so bad it disturbed me emotionally, but i think i am better this time..yes i am!

i've been thinking hard, how do i become someone who speaks her heart and express her feelings well? i'm not good at that at all..i really wish i could confront people and speak heart to heart with them..let them know my true feelings and intentions without me feeling embarrassed about it..argh, it's so hard to become a better person. i guess i dun have the courage yet probably because i'm scared people would judge me. i've been living like this for the past 24 years, probably i need more time. but i'll try best..i want to be able to convey my message well. and dun get panic and distracted but small small little things..hhuhu~

positive and happy

I’m trying to convince myself that I’m a happy and positive person who would take challenges with a smile..but today, something sooooo bad happened! And I cant smile..i wanna cry..huwaaaaa..there was a small accident and a small part of the car is ruined..but I’m sure the repair cost not gonna be small..aaaaa..

Why ?? When I was just planning to save some money..bukan rezeki la kot..i guess it’s true..that it’ll be difficult for me to mengumpul kekayaan..ah, what the heck..but I really cant help but feeling guilty towards my parents. I can’t take care of the car properly. Sob2~

nevermind..tomorrow i'll start a new day with a smile :)

Anyway, i’m back to square 1. February is the new year for me. Heh..i didn’t know that surgery was so stressful that by the time the posting ends only it came..hopefully with restarting this, everything will be in balance.

I’m a positive person. I want to live a happy life. I don’t hold grudges. And I don’t care about unimportant things anymore. If I did something wrong, please tell me what I did wrong and forgive me. I’ll try to improve myself ^-^

*listening to SNSD-Into a New World.. sulpun ijen annyeong..~haha :P

end of january

Yeah..went out wif Ed today! Dah lame gile tak jumpe..bile eh? Last year?? Eheheh..exactly when I dun remember..but it’s been a while..

Shopping!

Nasib baik ma hulurkan duit sebelum kuar, klau tak maybe hanya berjalan2 takde tujuan. Anyway, this is the first time I tried about 6 pairs of jeans..and one of it fits well but ketat kat betisss, slalunye klau ketat tu kat bhgn atas..ouch, I’m not skinny and definitely cant wear skinny jeans. Tak perasan lak tadi, men amik je..hahaha..last2 I bought a t-shirt at Marks & Spencer..at a reasonable price..of course! ^-^

Anyway, tomorrow I have to go to Damai to pack my things and move back to Serdang. But if I’m rajin probably I made a few trips back from Serdang to Damai in these 2 weeks. Depends~~ :P

Oh yeah, I discovered my own personality today..heheh, interesting.. most of it are true. But I’m scared about the part ‘susah mengumpul kekayaan’.huhu..probably due to my spending habits. Aih, I’ll try my best to buy only what I need and save more money! I want to travel around the world..wheeee~~

^-^

Just finished exam and..yay!!! Finally..i can rest..:)

Anyway, it’s so sad since surgery posting is gonna end tomorrow *sob2* but it doesn’t mean I want to do the posting again, life goes on..exam in May! -_-

Anesth posting is starting on Monday. Aih, kene pindah serdang lagi. Have to stay there for another 2 weeks…

oh yeah. I know this one is almost 2 years ago, but I just watched We Got Married ep 26 yesterday..and HyunJoong was so sweeeetttt! I’m so jealous of HwangBo..hehe..the moment he plays ‘Falling Slowly’ with his guitar, my heart is melting..waaaaahhh~~~ (meltssss) hehehe..can’t wait to finish all the episodes ^o^

Anyway, can’t wait to go home. I’m craving for sushi right now..urgh, so hungry, just woke up from sleep..i’m going to finish Heading to the Ground episodes..i miss my Dong Bang boys..ㄱㄱㄱㄱ ~ ^-* ~

thank you~

Yay! The best birthday present so far…^-^

Mr. Corby! Mr corby in pink..hehe

At last, I was so miserable with my previous hp. I dun know, probably I didn’t take good enough care of it..there are so many ‘bruises’ on it. Huhu.. so sorry.. it was my first hp I bought with my savings, probably because it was a ‘secret purchase’ and I didn’t get my permission from my parents, that’s why it got broken so easily..huhuu..

This time I got my parents approval, so hopefully it’ll be good. :)

Anyway, this is the 6th week in surgery. Need to pass up 3 case write ups! I hope everyone can finish their case presentation by today, cause I don’t want anymore classes! Even the lecturers are so busy and complaints we requested so many classes, but what to do..7 people need to present at least 4x. so we should have at least 28 cases presentation in 6 weeks! huhuhu

My energy level is depleting. I didn’t do much yesterday but it was so tiring that I slept early at 10 pm. Haih, it has been a few weeks since we did our discussions. Exam in 4 months ++ only..


For my 3rd year buddy – good luck for professional exam 2! Don’t panic, clear your mind and think straight..huhu, I learnt from my own experience…hwaiting!

phewww...~

I’m so exhausted..! I arrived home at 5pm today and I immediately went to the couch (mcm HyungDon in WGM) and slept for 2 hours! Then just now after completed my slides I went to the couch again and sleep! I’ve never had such opportunity to sleep like this before..and that’s why I’m all awake at this hour (it 0221 right now). I think probably all my energy was drained out all the week and today is the only time when I can actually sleep. I’ve been going out early and came back to the room late in the past few weeks. There are so many things to do.

Like today, I went out early to go the ENT ward for the CPC thingy. I was rushing later on because of the ‘supposed to have’ class at 9.30 - trying to walk carefully in the rain to avoid my shoes getting wet and at the same time rushing just to find out it was postponed! I went back to the ward to get the deets on my case write up but the file was not there. Haih..then the class was postponed in the afternoon, that’s when I went out with my friend to BB to survey some stuffs (hehe). But then, we were not very familiar with BB and trying to find a place to get some food because we were totally hungry..decided to walk to Times Square but later on realized we walked the opposite direction..haha.. The two of us were wearing baju kurung and holding ‘watsons’ plastic bag; we definitely look like girls from remote area who were lost in the middle of the big city. hahaha!

I really hope I can get something to boost up my energy. Final exam in just a few months. Next week is the last week in surgery before mock exam. Aaaa..really don’t want it to end. But still have another rotation to do. Medicine! Aih..totally enjoying surgery right now. Not like during my 3^rd year when all I got was palpitations and sweats during my bedside teaching with our previous lecturer. Hehe ..this time we were scolded more because we are in final year and most of our lecturers expect us to be well prepared as a houseman later on, but it’s still enjoyable. A little scolding really helps actually..wakes you up from your dreamland. Huhu~