Sunday, April 29, 2012

honestly....

well..honestly..if you read the title, i am writing this down with an honest feeling..haha..i'm so freaking tired, oh mannn...but 'instead of complaining, say Alhamdulillah'..yes..:P Alhamdulillah, i was able to wake up in time  to get ready and arrived at work on time, yes. something happened today but still thank you Allah for giving me the opportunity to learn without giving me a hard time. (eh, mcm rhyme plak) 


anyway, this morning while i was doing review, i noticed my patient is a bit sleepy. but when i talk to him he was responsive, and was able to understand me, but still, i noted his signature was weird when i asked him to sign a consent for a procedure.i did explained to him about the procedure and asked him to repeat what i said, he was able to repeat it but still he was not able to open his eyes properly(yes, that, i should've think of something). i noticed his signature totally different than the previous one(for a moment i did think of a scene in Grey's anatomy where it was a sign that their patient had a recent stroke, hehe) but because i was too focused on finishing my rounds before my MO came (less people in the ward during weekend), and since he was quite orientated, i just let it off my mind. but one hour later, alhamdulillah because there was an experience nurse, she was able to pick up the thing that i missed. oh ya Allah, thank you for not making it hard for me. i felt guilty and stupid because i was not able to pick up the sign, but i am grateful that  the patient was comfortable throughout my shif and didn't deteriorate. i was able to at least complete all the task to make sure he is really okay. i had a really busy day today, i tried my best but of course there was a moment i was a bit insincere. especially when unnecessary things causing delay in my job. 


i didn't get to eat my lunchbox n was holding my bladder till i really can leave the ward to go back home. and because of that, i had this crazy thoughts that i deserve a plate of fried kway teow (which is about 700 calories) because i didn't eat throughout the day, haha.  i called it crazy because now i'm regretting about it, a bit..:P whatever..~ anyway, everyday is a different day and there will always be a lesson to learn:) oh, and i am really trying hard to keep my own promise to myself. to have modesty and avoiding fitnah. not so easy, but i'll try my best. i pray things will be easy. if it is good for me & my religion, please make it easy for me ya Allah..ameen :)

Sunday, April 8, 2012

i'm feeling my blues..not really :P

yes.. i'm in my last posting, finally...Alhamdulillah..all praises belongs to Allah. my ending in ED was not so good, haha. i made myself feel like a loser. serves me right for doing things at the last minute. i left a bad impression of myself to my boss. being 'satisfactory' explains it all. haha. but that small things does not break me. yes, I was upset at myself but it was my own fault so no use just feeling upset unless i took lessons from it and improve myself. oh..of course, i miss my previous posting. so again, the only posting i didn't miss is medical. :p


anyway, my entry was quite late. hee, i'm already going to my 4th week in this posting. yes, again Alhamdulillah i passed my tagging assessment. so far this posting has the most strict tagging assessment. hehe. a few months left. hm. i dunno where my destination gonna be after this, but i hope Allah's plans is good for me. wherever it is, i just hope it is a good working environment, and i hope with this job i can get closer to my final destination. and with this job, i can practice my deen as best as i could. 


in one month, there'll be a new change in our family, insyaAllah. and i hope my time will come soon. Ameen ya Rabb :)