When things just get too much for me to handle, there will be someone who'll give me motivational words. it seems like Allah send that person to me right when I need it. and I usually get all these words of wisdom from patients. they are the one who contributes most to my learning. I learned from them about their illness and how their view about life.
Today, i approached a patient in hoping to get a case for write up. In the middle of conversation, suddenly she was talking about how we should be passionate about our work. and it hits me when she mentioned about sincerity and honesty in gaining knowledge. No matter how stressful our life is, if we are passionate about it, there will be satisfaction at the end of it. Right now I don't feel the satisfaction yet, maybe because I'm not passionate enough. i realized that I've not been really sincere and i don't even know what I'm pursuing in my life. Maybe I need to take some time to think about it. And learn how to be passionate about what I'm involved with. Still searching for the 'sparks' in my life and still trying to figure out the better way to learn.
Yep, but now I have to prepare for tomorrow's presentation, I hope things will be better this week..one more week..huhu~~~
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
argh~
The reason we want to be a doctor is to help people, whether they’re sick or healthy… that’s what a doctor do. Doctors don’t just treat sick people but they help healthy people to stay healthy. A doctor’s job is to help to treat the illness, prevent people from getting worse or at least make someone’s life better even if there’s nothing can be done. If being a doctor is such a noble job to you, why would anyone who wants to be a doctor would ever wish for people to get sick? I don’t know what is wrong with these people but I think they’re the one who’s sick. I’m tired… Such a nuisance!
I feel like screaming so loud so that all the stresses will go away but my eyes is doing the job causing my cheek to be wet…and my nose is producing this weird watery stuff. Yikes!~
Sunday, March 15, 2009
break away!
after 4 weeks of pretending being a nerd, finally i take a break and went out yesterday! yeah! but today, i'm worried thinking about tomorrow. a new week..............!
yesterday I went out with my sister and my roomate. We visited the education fair at the MVEC, then only we found out that it was supposed to be for SPM school leavers. haha. tapi redah je la, and amik all the free gifts (yeah). maybe we do look like only sevenTeen..sbb ade jugak orang datang tanye 'adik berminat nak amik course ape?'. hahaha.. so hilarious!~ :P
anyway, I bought a new pair of sandals.. I hope this one lasts longer since the price is damn 'good'. haha.. I guess I need to try to lose weight coz sometimes I think my legs and shoes can't handle my weight, that's why everytime I need to stand longer my legs will definitely feel like nak tercabut. and my shoes usually don't last long. ~
i think one day off is good enough. it's time to continue pretending to be a nerd for the rest of the posting :D
I'm expecting a tough and hard times in the next 3 weeks. there's so much to learn! aja! :)
yesterday I went out with my sister and my roomate. We visited the education fair at the MVEC, then only we found out that it was supposed to be for SPM school leavers. haha. tapi redah je la, and amik all the free gifts (yeah). maybe we do look like only sevenTeen..sbb ade jugak orang datang tanye 'adik berminat nak amik course ape?'. hahaha.. so hilarious!~ :P
anyway, I bought a new pair of sandals.. I hope this one lasts longer since the price is damn 'good'. haha.. I guess I need to try to lose weight coz sometimes I think my legs and shoes can't handle my weight, that's why everytime I need to stand longer my legs will definitely feel like nak tercabut. and my shoes usually don't last long. ~
i think one day off is good enough. it's time to continue pretending to be a nerd for the rest of the posting :D
I'm expecting a tough and hard times in the next 3 weeks. there's so much to learn! aja! :)
Friday, March 13, 2009
another day...~
I have about half an hour before I'm going to leave my room, but it is raining heavily now on this beuatiful Friday morning..makes me want to go to sleep again..anyway, I'm supposed to be reading a bit but so malas now la..
Yesterday I was doing my so-called on call (hehe) and I was talking to this nice HO..all the others HO are also nice..after talking to her, I feel like I have this new thing..mcm mane ek, it's like opening my mind a bit. hehe. now i realized that I was so rigid with things. Have to finish study by 2010, start working straight away, finished my training in 2 years, become MO, work in community, go back to hospital, then continue working until maybe I have the chance to continue with postgraduate, or maybe just be a GP..then work work work. hah! see..I don't even have plans for my life. A woman's life is not complete until she delivers baby and starts breastfeeding. hehe..so maybe after finish my 5th year I should get married first. sounds good.
but I have problems with that also. haih..~ asking people to find a partner and get married is easy, but to do it is not easy. or am I just making it difficult for myself? I don't know. I'm kinda like living this way right now but as the time goes by, still have to think for my future life..huhu.
I guess I'm talking all this is because I'm seeing women, expecting moms, babies and their husbands a lot nowadays. haha. and for the facts that natural fertility reduces after 25 years and seeing some couple who has difficulties in conceiving, seeing new moms delivering babies, seeing cute babies around, seeing husbands giving support to their wife..just another chapter in life..a bit too much maybe. baru sebulan.haha..poyyyyoooo jehhh~
Anyway, I have another one month to go. I hope things will be okay. A little bit of embarassment from being scolded and making mistakes should be fine because this is new and still trying to learn things. If three previous group before this can survive all this, I bet I can too! I'm trying to be optimistic even though I do feel like a slight hypothyroid..huuuhuuu (my hypothyroid laugh) :P
Yesterday I was doing my so-called on call (hehe) and I was talking to this nice HO..all the others HO are also nice..after talking to her, I feel like I have this new thing..mcm mane ek, it's like opening my mind a bit. hehe. now i realized that I was so rigid with things. Have to finish study by 2010, start working straight away, finished my training in 2 years, become MO, work in community, go back to hospital, then continue working until maybe I have the chance to continue with postgraduate, or maybe just be a GP..then work work work. hah! see..I don't even have plans for my life. A woman's life is not complete until she delivers baby and starts breastfeeding. hehe..so maybe after finish my 5th year I should get married first. sounds good.
but I have problems with that also. haih..~ asking people to find a partner and get married is easy, but to do it is not easy. or am I just making it difficult for myself? I don't know. I'm kinda like living this way right now but as the time goes by, still have to think for my future life..huhu.
I guess I'm talking all this is because I'm seeing women, expecting moms, babies and their husbands a lot nowadays. haha. and for the facts that natural fertility reduces after 25 years and seeing some couple who has difficulties in conceiving, seeing new moms delivering babies, seeing cute babies around, seeing husbands giving support to their wife..just another chapter in life..a bit too much maybe. baru sebulan.haha..poyyyyoooo jehhh~
Anyway, I have another one month to go. I hope things will be okay. A little bit of embarassment from being scolded and making mistakes should be fine because this is new and still trying to learn things. If three previous group before this can survive all this, I bet I can too! I'm trying to be optimistic even though I do feel like a slight hypothyroid..huuuhuuu (my hypothyroid laugh) :P
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