reminder~

as time goes by i realized i have changed a bit..well, not a bit..but a lot..since the past few weeks i started to feel like i'm losing my sincerity. sometimes i got irritated and been cursing silently in my heart..really, i cant believe that i'm turning into such person.. when i was studying i always remind myself i have to be sincere in whatever i do..but now..i hope it was not obvious to other people..i'm writing this down as a reminder for myself, if i am ever to lose my patience, i have to remember the person that i used to be. all the values and things that i believe in in. where had all my empathy gone? this is just a beginning, there's still a long way to go.. remember Allah, your parents & family..and be thankful for everything that you've been blessed with~

Ibrahim a.s once asked Allah, "O my Lord!Where does the disease come from?"
He said, "From me."
Ibrahim a.s said, "Where does the cure come from?"
He said, "From me."
Ibrahim a.s said, "What is the role of the doctor then?"
He said, "A man in whose hands I send and cause cure."

two months

annyeong..wah..so long already since i last updated this blog..haha..so busy with work..trying to catch up with everything..if i am to write everything from the 'first day of life' i wont be able to recall everything..but so far last week is the worst week ever..starting from sunday, i feel like i lost my hope when my patient's bedsore which i noticed was improving just 2 days before suddenly became ugly..stress..then the next day i was humiliated in front of many people because of antibiotic dosage..thank God the surgeon was so nice, i actually want to cry because it was so embarassing..my eyes were actually wet but luckily i was wearing a face mask so no one can see my expression..huhu..the subsequent days were okkay, but i had my first call in redzone..3 cases in a row, i dun even have time to break fast..itupun dapat a piece of kuih from radiographer kat x-ray department, thanks a lot..it was not so bad, i got to sleep a few hours after i settled everything, but i didn't wake up for sahur..seriously tido mati..hehe..but my 2nd call in redzone on 2nd raya was much worse..from 7am to the next day i didn't get to sleep..sob2..sedihh..argh..nevermind, looking at the bright side i got to learn a few new things..huhu..and some people are actually nice to me, i'm so thankful~

i was quite nervous to go to work this week but alhamdulillah things were good..i don't have any call and i got to learn more new things in the ward..next week is the last week and going for another ward rotation..sekejap je, tak lame lagi dah assessment..oh yeah, the next thing i'm so looking forward to is convocation! tak sabar nak jumpe my old classmates..miss them so much..:) i hope at least things will happen as planned..amiin..~

so far i haven't explored the royal city yet, i dun have that many friends to ajak lepak2..i'm a bit slow in getting close to people..i need at least half a year to do so..haha..come on sarah, be more proactive!ahh..i thought i'm more proactive compared to my med school time, but apparently it's not enough..need to work harder..oh, and i need to present case better..파이팅..!!! ㅅ_ㅅ~