one step further

a few times i tried to write but somehow i lost my words. i don't know what to write about because things are just so ordinary. hehe. not like today has any extra-ordinary event happened. it just that because i started my day with a funny incident. :P 

oh, this week i am doing periphery rounds. somehow feels like doing MO job (only when seeing referrals), but then i realized i'm still an inexperience HO when i don't know what plans i should give to that patient, so i leave the space empty. haha. so today, i went to a medical ward (i didn't do any rotation in the ward previously so i'm definitely not familiar with it), foolish me, i almost made the whole ward "gelabah" when i said my patient has MRSA.hahaha. i saw the culture result MRSA isolated but didn't notice the initial part saying "NO" because the ink is fading. buat malu jeh. :P

anyway, things are not really fun because they are not the same anymore. i'm not really into it so i'd rather stay away from it. but i think some people are trying hard to impress others. sorry to say but it appears that way. again, i have to remind myself, if it doesn't involve me, then don't bother. worry more about yourself. your future. your Akhirah. are you really prepared? huuu~ if things are not beneficial to me, i'd rather lose it than trying hard to keep it. i can't make people change. i'm in the process of changing myself. it's not easy. at one time you feel you are strong, then at one time you get distracted. just making du'a that Allah will always guide me and don't let me be misguided. i know i'm not the right person to say anything because i'm not at that level yet. anyway, i pray the rest of the week will be better than ever. Ameen :)

progress in life

last night i was on the night shift, i was covering an active call. everything was ok, until a patient with  an infected wound decided to have an asthma attack. then early in the morning, suddenly everyone got a surge of high blood pressure. but alhamdulillah, at least everything was under controlled :)

anyway, as i was browsing through my facebook, i noticed a lot of my friends had so much progress in their life. most of them who are married are already blessed with a child. subhanallah :) i'm glad they had completed half their deen and given a bigger responsibility as a parent..but there are some who are still trying after a few years, i hope they'll be given patience. Allah al Wahhab, the giver of all gifts, surely will give you unexpected gift when the time has come. He knows best, He is al Qadeer, the One who had prescribe our destiny even before we are created :)

talking about this, alhamdulillah, our family is going to expand a bit this month, hehe. finally, as my parents had been dreaming all this while, they are able to host a wedding ceremony. but again, i want everyone to remember, it is the marriage that matters, not the wedding. while my family are busy preparing for this event (i dont get involve much because of work), i was planning my own. haha. ok, not really planning, but more of dreaming. i don't want a grand wedding. who cares about having VIPs eating on your table(seriously, they don't even know you at all) what matters is the important people in my life will be there during my wedding ceremony. my families and friends.  i know sometimes we can plan, but things don't really happen our way. but, this is just my dream :) what i mean by friends is those people that really had been there for me even for a certain period of time only, but we shared really good memories. real memories. you know who you are :) i don't have that many close friends, the one who knows the real me. every time i was at a certain place, there'll be one or two people who got really close with me. even though after that period of time we go our own way and don't contact much, they're still the ones who had seen me at my best and worst time :) haha..berangan lebih. anyway, my dream wedding should be a.s.a.p...not as soon as possible (i wish) but as simple as possible. again, what matters is the marriage, not the wedding :P

okay, enough for today. got to study a bit and also replying to the long lists of wedding invitations for this month and next month (ok, ade about 7 je, takde la banyak sangat haha) i really hope i can attend all but there are some that clash with each other and the place is so impossible to reach within a day travelling from my place. so i'll try my best. but even if i don't attend, i will always pray everyone for a marriage that is like a wonderful journey towards jannah, with the blessings from Allah ar Rahman :) ameen~~