meat weekend~

selamat hari raya aidiladha..it's finally our mid term break! one week only..yeah...huhuh

anyway, next week i'm officially out of serdang campus..for another 8 weeks? then have to go back to serdang for 2 weeks? haih..all my life spent in upm is about moving here and there..so tired! but what to do..only less than 6 months left..then hopefully i'll leave this place in peace..amiiinnnnn~

there's one thing that i couldnt understand since the past few days. it bothers me at first but now....i just thought..whatever! i dun understand why people never explains..but if they think not explaining is better, then it's fine. coz i think i'm getting used to people like that..all the time! whatever..~ i think something is wrong with me coz i keep losing people around me, but these people just left and never tell me what is wrong so that i can change. i assume it has to be my fault, but truthfully, i dun even know what i did wrong..really dun know..it cant be their fault if the same thing keep happening to me? it cant be that i'm destined to meet the same people who's going to leave in the end? it has to be my fault, but really can't figure out what is it... aigoo aigoo~

ho yeah..~

Finished my ortho exam today! Yay! I hope I did well..huhu..somehow I feel a little bit disappointed coz I couldn’t present my case well..stumble upon my words. Argh..my English has not really been good but now I can feel it’s getting worse especially when I speaks. The right word doesn’t come out like what I have in my mind. Heh~

Anyway, I’ve been spending the last 12 hours watching videos and more videos.. yaaa.. case write up number 2 belum siap lagi..got 2 more days and 2 more weeks left for our ortho posting, really want to do it well since it’s our only chance before we finish our study. But as much as I want to do well and concentrate on my studies, I am easily distracted by the Korean entertainment thing right now.

I just can’t stop myself from downloading..and downloading..currently having interest to watch IRIS- as the rating for every episode is high, so it must be some good drama isn’t it? But at the same time also I don’t want to miss my almost-forgotten crush Jang Geun Seuk acting in You’re Beautiful! Haih..~~ since the rising interest in DBSK, now all my old Korean drama habits came again..i’ve stopped watching Korean dramas a few years (or a year?) ago, last time was Hong Gil Dong (with Geun Seuk of course..) then going back to American series and now going back to Korean series (plus Korean variety shows and Idols thingy right now!) even worst..we only have less than 6 months to final professional xm!


Currently I’m loving ‘Park Bom-You & I’. sweet!:)

novemberrrr~~

Ah..it’s been so long..’long time no see’! Haha

Anyways, our final medical dinner just ended a few days ago..it was great! Really! But I was too exhausted I couldn’t enjoy the performances, but I know it was good. So thumbs up for 2^nd yr juniors!

Not so many pictures taken coz camera ran out of battery. Last minute preparation. Uhuk!

Post dinner..i got fever and flu. Luckily just low grade fever but the past 2 days I slept early and not studying. Ortho exam is next week!

Aaaa..orthooo..examm..sekejap je dah nak abis posting nih.. ok ke ni? Takott..rasa cam posting intro medicine and surgery dulu..this time tak seblur dlu but stilllll..haih..God, please help me..as on today, only 187 days left before the pro xm..huhhh~

Ah, going back to reality..please study hard..then so many things I want to do after this..화이팅!!!!

raya on our own

anyway, selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin. sorry to all my frens coz i didnt really sent out sms or emails or wall post on fb to wish hari raya..bcoz..i was not in a good mood prior to this hari raya..so many things happened justttt before raya..and justtt before ramadhan ends. cobaan~ bukannye ape sangat, but when one massive stressful thing happened, it can trigger all the stressful memories to appear..again and again (mcm lagu 2pm..hehe)huhu....~

so this year, we (me and my sisters) were celebrating hari raya in airport. we went to KLIA on the first night of raya--> parents going to Stockholm..we went to Subang airport on 2nd day --> our beloved doctor starts working on 2nd day..and last but not least LCCT on 4th day --> sending off our brother back to Kuching..that's the beginning of 'doing our own things' at home during holiday..haha..procrastinating and going out to shopping malls. luckily it's raya time, so we dun have to worry much about foods. and yeah, because it's raya, i GAINED 2 KG!!

and not to forget, congrats to Wawa on her engangement..:):)

oh yeah, i'm breaking the rules againnn (junsu's part)..kehkehkeh..i got Mirotic the 4th album..yeah..(best2)..but i like secret code better, i think..but i still love themmm ^-^

oh, and during this raya break, i didn't fail to study other things which unrelated to medicine. this time, i'm studying korean hangul..kahkah..at least now, i can read words written in korean..heh..tapi tak terer lagi, i need some time to spell and read it properly, haha..but now, when i see the korean writings, it's not so foreign to me like before :P *wink2*

this is the last day of raya break. cepat pulak masa berlalu. i hope my parents will arrive safely tomorrow.

last but not least, let's study orthopedics!

oppppssss..

ahhaaa...

yesterday's bukak pose session was the best..hee..thanks dayah! arigatou...!

and i did it..uhuh...

guess what i did? i break the code..'The Secret Code'..and it reveals 5 gorgeous guys with great songs and dance moves..yay!! i love them! tohoshinki des! *excited excited*

2 more days..tak sabar nak cuti but at the same time trying to develop interest in new orthopaedic posting..huuuu

oh yea, i forgot to write down about our batch gathering last saturday. it was great and fun..haha.. especially during our 'coffee talk' session in OldTown..i felt like we were filming 'Happy Together' show during that time..haha..but i was sleepy the whole time. heh.. anyway, it was great to see all those people who came..really, everyone has grown up. most of them has got their degree and started working already. cool..i have 236 days to go..arkk..but still need to improve in soooo many things. hwaiting! (^o^)~

finding lost time..

yesterday was officially my last day in ObGyn Department...and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....i want to scream..i dun know why but the past one week i'm a bit lost..i worried about so many things that in the end i didn't study as well as i should.. and yeah, it shows in my exam yesterday, my examiner said i did the worst among others. haih~ it seems i've completed my Obs notes but actually i havent read it thoroughly, just flipping through pages, as if i knew everything already. then when i got PPROM for my exam, hah, there you go..i can't even put things into pieces and screwed up..listening to fetal heart with Pinnard some more..ooohhh..doushite..doushiteee..~~i was so blur the whole week that i even forgot to call my parents before going to xm, which i normally do, to get their blessings. after coming back home only i realized that. i passed, but i'm disappointed in myself for not knowing why i was like that and wasted my whole week for nothing. *dush dush!*

anyway, so far my performance is going down, compare to 4th year..why? i dun know. but i thought i did well, but in exam it just shows that i've been so perasan the whole time. haha..so, new posting starts next week --> Ortho! hope i will get out from my misery and do well. hwaiting! il yeolshimhihae!

just one..

last 2 days was our finishing school program and i cant believe that i actually attend all the sessions. yes, i was one of the many people who complaints about it and was like ' no i'm not going!'. but at the end of the day, when so many people using 'oncall' as an excuse, i thought it was pretty lame and yeah, i decided to attend all the sessions even though i am actually on call on that day.

anyway, yes, at first i thought it was not relevant for any of us, because after we graduate, we'll be working in one of the hospital in malaysia which would definitely train us as a houseman. it's true, in terms of fresh graduates, compare to other courses, we don't need to do resume and going through the job hunt. but later on in the future, the program is actually useful if we are talking about post housemanship thing. now i know what i have to anticipate and prepare for things in the future, it actually helps to broaden my views about working life.

so, now i'm doing my senior ObGyn posting..2nd week already. hope i'll improve! aja!