I have about half an hour before I'm going to leave my room, but it is raining heavily now on this beuatiful Friday morning..makes me want to go to sleep again..anyway, I'm supposed to be reading a bit but so malas now la..
Yesterday I was doing my so-called on call (hehe) and I was talking to this nice HO..all the others HO are also nice..after talking to her, I feel like I have this new thing..mcm mane ek, it's like opening my mind a bit. hehe. now i realized that I was so rigid with things. Have to finish study by 2010, start working straight away, finished my training in 2 years, become MO, work in community, go back to hospital, then continue working until maybe I have the chance to continue with postgraduate, or maybe just be a GP..then work work work. hah! see..I don't even have plans for my life. A woman's life is not complete until she delivers baby and starts breastfeeding. hehe..so maybe after finish my 5th year I should get married first. sounds good.
but I have problems with that also. haih..~ asking people to find a partner and get married is easy, but to do it is not easy. or am I just making it difficult for myself? I don't know. I'm kinda like living this way right now but as the time goes by, still have to think for my future life..huhu.
I guess I'm talking all this is because I'm seeing women, expecting moms, babies and their husbands a lot nowadays. haha. and for the facts that natural fertility reduces after 25 years and seeing some couple who has difficulties in conceiving, seeing new moms delivering babies, seeing cute babies around, seeing husbands giving support to their wife..just another chapter in life..a bit too much maybe. baru sebulan.haha..poyyyyoooo jehhh~
Anyway, I have another one month to go. I hope things will be okay. A little bit of embarassment from being scolded and making mistakes should be fine because this is new and still trying to learn things. If three previous group before this can survive all this, I bet I can too! I'm trying to be optimistic even though I do feel like a slight hypothyroid..huuuhuuu (my hypothyroid laugh) :P
Yesterday I was doing my so-called on call (hehe) and I was talking to this nice HO..all the others HO are also nice..after talking to her, I feel like I have this new thing..mcm mane ek, it's like opening my mind a bit. hehe. now i realized that I was so rigid with things. Have to finish study by 2010, start working straight away, finished my training in 2 years, become MO, work in community, go back to hospital, then continue working until maybe I have the chance to continue with postgraduate, or maybe just be a GP..then work work work. hah! see..I don't even have plans for my life. A woman's life is not complete until she delivers baby and starts breastfeeding. hehe..so maybe after finish my 5th year I should get married first. sounds good.
but I have problems with that also. haih..~ asking people to find a partner and get married is easy, but to do it is not easy. or am I just making it difficult for myself? I don't know. I'm kinda like living this way right now but as the time goes by, still have to think for my future life..huhu.
I guess I'm talking all this is because I'm seeing women, expecting moms, babies and their husbands a lot nowadays. haha. and for the facts that natural fertility reduces after 25 years and seeing some couple who has difficulties in conceiving, seeing new moms delivering babies, seeing cute babies around, seeing husbands giving support to their wife..just another chapter in life..a bit too much maybe. baru sebulan.haha..poyyyyoooo jehhh~
Anyway, I have another one month to go. I hope things will be okay. A little bit of embarassment from being scolded and making mistakes should be fine because this is new and still trying to learn things. If three previous group before this can survive all this, I bet I can too! I'm trying to be optimistic even though I do feel like a slight hypothyroid..huuuhuuu (my hypothyroid laugh) :P
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