you say aku..~

"baby baby my baby..you drive me crazy..lalalala"

currently listening to that song, best pulak. takde la follow sangat crite Upik Abu & Laura tu, kadang2 tengok cam kelakar, kadang2 menyampah pun ada. huhu..stakat ni lepas blk rumah, jadual TV pn berubah. ntahla, i'm not really into TV programs. klau rasa nak follow, follow. klau dah bosan, malas nak tgk.

baru 3 hari cuti, dah bosan..but actually there's so much to do. ingat lima perkara sebelum lima perkara..jangan buang masa, chaiyok2!

things to do:
1- kemas buku2 lame...
2- kemas barang2 kat kampung baru (sob2)
3- pulangkan kunci kt office
4- beli hadiah utk birthday ma (14th June)
5- hadiah utk Father's day (bulan ni kan? but bile eh?)
6- update notes2..uhuk2
7- work out..huhuh..!
8- ehm..pe lagi eh..?

my last cuti before starting my 5th year. final year. soon.

nak mulakan sem baru dengan hati yang tenang. benda yang only a few days past, of course will take time to be forgotten. the wasted 5 weeks. ohhh..my heart still hurts thinking about it. huhu. moving on but takes time......

here at home~

this month only so many people are getting married. congratulations! and of course, to munie yang baru je bertunang a few days ago, congrats! i'm so happy for everybody. they found someone they want to spend their life with. i love weddings. but i haven't got the chance to attend the one that i've been invited. huhu.

i was also clearing up my closet this morning sbb dah berbukit bukau. anyway, i just realized that i had one Dorothy Perkin's t-shirt that i bought in London 8 years ago..and it was actually a maternity t-shirt! hahah..all this while i didn't noticed at all. after 8 years.....

a few weeks more before starting new semester. this is my Day 1 of holiday..yay!

halfway to go~

three weeks more then i'm going back home for good. at least for a month, before stepping into the 5th year. one more year. so cuak. anyway, 3 weeks in KB, so far so good. at least we manage to hide our location, keh2. but when people live a little bit or maybe too far away and too long from family, things sometimes can't be good. hmm~

anyway, surgery posting is d best! hehe. mayb becoz there's no 'kiasu'2 people around and only us there, so we got great opportunities to learn. and i learnt a lot. thanks to d nice doctors, surgeons and surgeons-to-be dat are willing to teach us :P but there are still lots of things to revise, terlupa plak nk bwk notes, at least bleh trus update kan. huhu

oh, i definitely not going to forget about Hartmann's procedure. InsyaAllah :)

still have lots of places to visit. nak pegi shopping lagi.

my vacation that i've planned long ago nampaknye tak menjadi la. not a good time to travel or going to airport with this swine flu thing still around. stuck for another year here. haih~

i guess i'm not supposed to make any plans this year. so i'm not gonna plan to diet or lose weight, coz i know it won't happen. haha. whatever will be, will be~

one-hour hospital admission

today, something is totally wrong with me. i don't know what is it but it's just not right. i woke up today feeling healthy and good, driving to kg baru from my home, attend my bedside teaching, even do a short case with my lecturer today. then boommm..ceh, mcm ape je. heheh. anyway, i was suddenly feeling like i'm going to pass out, my hands are extremely cold and cyanosed, and i feel my body is burning up. thanks to my beloved lecturer, he noticed me and able to get me a bed :)...in antenatal ward..sweet..the nurses thought i'm pregnant. (huhu). i almost believe that there is an air cond in the ward, it was so cold but yeah, i'm definitely hallucinating. thanks to my friends who helped taking my VS. :D

anyway, i hope i'll be in a good state of health before my exam this wednesday. please, i want to do well in this final posting in our 4th year. before stepping into the 5th year. just a few days more. chaiyok!

unplanned

last week, i planned so many things:

a) I planned to go through our attachment in gynae ward with peace in my mind..huhu
b) I planned to go to see my doctor and hear good news
c) I planned to drive my car (of course)
d) I planned to attend Khidmat Masyarakat program on Saturday
e) I planned to go to ward on Sunday to find my last CWU
f) I planned to study for exam this Tuesday (tomorrow)

but NONE of it happen last week

Unexpected things happened. So unpredictable

One thing that makes all the bad things feel good is..
to have your family around
to have EVERYONE in your family gathers
for this unforgettable moment

Al fatihah buat Abg Aaseem who passed away on 4th April 2009. Semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman.


Kita hanya merancang, Allah yang menentukannya..~

--> I'm smart enough not to act stupidly and hurt the one that i respect most

lost and found..~

When things just get too much for me to handle, there will be someone who'll give me motivational words. it seems like Allah send that person to me right when I need it. and I usually get all these words of wisdom from patients. they are the one who contributes most to my learning. I learned from them about their illness and how their view about life.

Today, i approached a patient in hoping to get a case for write up. In the middle of conversation, suddenly she was talking about how we should be passionate about our work. and it hits me when she mentioned about sincerity and honesty in gaining knowledge. No matter how stressful our life is, if we are passionate about it, there will be satisfaction at the end of it. Right now I don't feel the satisfaction yet, maybe because I'm not passionate enough. i realized that I've not been really sincere and i don't even know what I'm pursuing in my life. Maybe I need to take some time to think about it. And learn how to be passionate about what I'm involved with. Still searching for the 'sparks' in my life and still trying to figure out the better way to learn.

Yep, but now I have to prepare for tomorrow's presentation, I hope things will be better this week..one more week..huhu~~~

argh~

The reason we want to be a doctor is to help people, whether they’re sick or healthy… that’s what a doctor do. Doctors don’t just treat sick people but they help healthy people to stay healthy. A doctor’s job is to help to treat the illness, prevent people from getting worse or at least make someone’s life better even if there’s nothing can be done. If being a doctor is such a noble job to you, why would anyone who wants to be a doctor would ever wish for people to get sick? I don’t know what is wrong with these people but I think they’re the one who’s sick. I’m tired… Such a nuisance!

I feel like screaming so loud so that all the stresses will go away but my eyes is doing the job causing my cheek to be wet…and my nose is producing this weird watery stuff. Yikes!~