going green

aaaaahhh..i wanted to post on d day we got back from our trip but i was so tired and have to get back to work on d very next day..soooo...it's almost one week in dis new posting..and yeah, i didnt fail to get any scoldings..wahhhaaa..so depressing at dat moment..but watever, words had been said it's up to me to take it in a positive or negative way..anyway, i dun know what got into me yesterday but i cant believe i forgot to complete my specialist's request..that one, it's suicidal..obviously my fault but i cant find the reason why it slipped my mind..huuuu..crazyyyy crazyyy.hopefully nothing like dat ever happen again or else...i dun know, i may need to write myself a psychiatric referral for 'attempting suicide'..huhu

anyway, i cant believe i would have this feeling, but i missed paeds..really..haha..back then 4 months ago during my tagging time i totally hate it and i thought by the time i'm changing posting i wont missed it, but yes i am..huu..but i have to move on..still have a long way to go..and sometimes still wondering this and that...hmmm..hmmm~~ alrite..i lost my words already..like always, my ideas to write always stop halfway..i hope i'll improve..fighting!!! :)